From Infertility to Full Circle Healing

Today's post is all about why I'm here, why I started this coaching business for moms, and why I decided that my life’s mission is to teach moms how to be more present and calm, to empower moms with young kids with parenting skills to make discipline easier, and to curate retreats for moms to engage in self-care and healing.

Spoiler alert, this story is personal, it's heartfelt, and it's rooted in a decade long journey that changed my life forever.

I have to share this story with you today, on Mother's Day. It is a perfect day to honor the sacred role of mothers and to celebrate all the women who have shaped us and nurtured us throughout our lives. I am so passionate about the role of mothers and it feels like I needed to celebrate that today and I wanted to launch this business with all the energy of this celebration and honoring and the sacred space for mothers. These are the exact themes that I hope to weave into every aspect of my coaching, but there's another reason and it's a little more personal.

Starting this community for mom support and teaching has brought me full circle in my journey of struggle and healing. Mother's Day hasn't always been easy for me. In fact, there's been many years that I didn't want to even acknowledge Mother's Day. For years and years and years, it was a day that brought a mix of hope and heartbreak, but mostly heartbreak and pain. Because for over a decade, I walked the painful road of infertility. And that's why my passion and appreciation for motherhood is as strong as it is. And that's really what began this whole journey to this business. Let me take you back.

For over ten years, my husband and I dreamed of starting a family. We prayed, we planned, we went through countless doctor's appointments, treatments, moments of holding our breath hoping this would be the month. There were tears, and questions, and grief and pain. Times that I wondered if I would ever get to hold my own child. Infertility is a journey that really tests your heart, your faith, and your strength in ways I can't even describe. And because I've been through it, I have a very acute sensitivity to anyone whose path to motherhood looks different than they imagined it would. Because of the experiences I've gone through, I learned some profound lessons.

I learned that motherhood isn't just about giving birth, it's about love, sacrifice, and the fierce determination to create a family no matter how that family comes to be. My years of infertility shaped me. I spent my career trying to make meaning out of this suffering by opening a private practice that focused on infertility counseling, and counseling women with postpartum depression and perinatal mood disorders. When I finally was able to start my own family, through the help of medical technology, I eventually had twins born through IVF. Because of the challenges leading up to it, I cherish every moment of motherhood in a way I don't think I would have otherwise.

When I finally did hold my twins in my arms, after all the waiting and all the heartache, it was like the world shifted. I knew from the time I was born that motherhood was all I wanted to do. After it eluded me for so many years, and then I was finally granted the privilege, I decided then and there that motherhood was the greatest gift, the hardest job, but the most beautiful calling that I would ever have. And I knew I wanted to share that passion with others. So that's why I'm here.

And that's why I'm so passionate about sharing this with you. “Motherhood: The Best Job in the World” isn't just a catchy title. It's my truth. I believe motherhood is a sacred role.

Whether you're a biological mom, an adoptive mom, a foster mom, a stepmom, or a woman who nurtures others with a mother's heart. I want this to be a space where we can celebrate every story, the triumphs and even the messy moments.

I experienced postpartum depression after my twins were born despite everything that I'm telling you about how grateful I was and how much I appreciated the opportunity. I still felt the hormonal and biological reaction to such a huge shift in my reality when it came to parenting these two babies. So I understand both sides of it. I know that we can love and be grateful and cherish the opportunity to be a mother, and we can also feel like we're drowning and suffering and feel depressed and anxious about this mothering journey. But I want this to be a place of hope.

So if you're listening and you're in the thick of infertility, loss, or waiting for your own miracle, I see you. And I've been there. And I want you to know that your journey matters. Your love is already making you a mother in so many ways.

So what can you expect from this motherhood coaching space? We will explore the highs and lows of motherhood, everything from parenting tips, to self-care for moms, to toddle life and twin mom stories that make us laugh and cry. I promise to keep it real because motherhood is too wild for anything less than that.